Can I ever be helped?

I am sinking further into horrible depression. I am not sure what to do, but then I never know what to do when I feel this shitty. I feel dead, really. And I worry I'll never be okay. I'll never be happy.

I don't know how I got here or where I am. All of my past seems distant, cold, and negative. I feel like I'll never amount to anything.

Now, I am locked in a horrible trance of thought. I just imagined myself out on the streets, homeless, and shivering cold. And alone. I don't want to be literally homeless and alone. If I do end up homeless, I hope it's with someone else.

You know I have to do something right now. I have to go to social services website and look up the information for PAC, a health insurance program for low-income people.

So, audios.